July 23rd; A Day Like No Other

It has been a while. I apologize. Boo hoo. Let's do this.

I woke up today feeling different. Hard to explain exactly what had changed but the point was that I knew that my mood could go one way or the other. I could actually sense my little brain-bites deciding whether or not this was going to be a "good day" or a "bad day".

After eating and showering, I chose to take the dogs on a walk despite the threat of rain. Earlier on when I was letting the dogs out, I had momentarily felt that the air had a warm but not hot breeze running through it. I thought this might be nice to walk in.

Indeed, within the first few minutes, it began to drizzle but I continued on. The sensation was one I hadn't felt in a while and I wanted to enjoy it. The dogs didn't seem to mind at all so I took the luxury of going a little slower than usually just to "take it all in". By the time I was only a few hundred feet from home, the rain had gotten quite heavy.

Still, I was loving every moment of it. There was this huge stupid grin on my face and must have confused people that were driving past. I didn't care. I was happy. While it was just a little walk in the rain it made me realize that one should never "sweat the small stuff". So I got caught in the rain - so what? I will be dry in thirty minutes. No real harm AT ALL was done.

If I have the ability to "turn around" something that would usually make me grumpy, then I have the power to do that in other aspect of my life - perhaps even on a greater scale. Lately my thoughts have been on two things, the greater being school. I am worried about the coming year and it's difficult. I am concerned about the pressure to pursue my degree after graduating from college. Heck, I am even a little anxious about living with only girls next year. However, there is no need.

The really important things in my life are stable. I have family, friends, healthy and happiness. All the other stuff is a bonus. I know I am a resourceful and capable young man so the rest will fall into place accordingly. And if for some reason it doesn't, oh well. I work on it when I get there. Fretting now will accomplish nothing.

I just thought I would share that little bit of insight. It made me feel good. And powerful.



- Jeffrey