January 16th; I Threw Up Feelings Today.

I am angry because no one appreciate or understand my thoughts.
I guess I need therapy.

I am sad because the closest I can get to someone is to be an 'acquaintance".
I guess I am too selfish.

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I am in a pretty good place in my life but I must admit that I am frustrated. I get these great marks and all my professors this week basically told me that those numbers are meaningless. The one teacher - of Human Relations - says it is all about how I treat and behave around people. Another teacher - of Wildlife - requires that I know hundreds of birds, mammals, trees, shrubs and vegetation. The rest seem to believe it is all about field experience.

The good news? I am a very motivated person. I will get everything done. I consider myself a pretty great team player. I have some possibilities lined up for work this summer. I am pretty keen on my identification skills.

The bad news? It is week one and I already feel that tension slipping in. I thought I had gotten rid of that over the break. I guess not.

Other stupid little things are bothering me. I won't go into those. I have had enough with complaining. I thought this would be a safe place to purge myself of negativity. I do not think many people look at this (nix that - I KNOW!)

That said, I would like the thank the following people. Lately, you have been so good to me.

Amy, Sara, Kyle, Matt, Andy, Emily, Karen, Jason, Michael, Mother, Father and Grandma.

Oh - and a huge thanks to God. 21+ years and I am still alive. It is all you, Big Guy.


- Jeffrey