This Time

I think I have found out why I am not always so happy.

This time I am going to stop caring about the 90%
This time I am going to start having fun when I am young
This time I am not going to be ashamed of my intelligence
This time I am not going to go over something already raped to death
This time I am going to do what my body says is right
This time I am going to do what makes me feel good.

I am sick of worry about what everyone thinks of me. I am tired of caring so much about everything. I can no longer afford to be Mr. Perfect.

I am going to rejoice in my friend, do well in school, and let everything else just fall in place. This is what I think will work. It feels like walking in a hilly forest blindfolded and with my legs tied together but I say it is worth a try.

It's nothing that will kill me after all...