What a Pity...

I have never been so upset for getting over 90%

A 96% but I know it is really a 80%. Stupid 90% accuracy rate. Why isn't an 80% enough?

I can do the test again. Why am I even worrying? What has happened to me.

I cannot believe that almost destroyed me. I cannot believe that was crumbling me apart.

I was rude, hostile, and unpleasant. My smile faded away and my limbs grew heavy. My stomach felt like it hated me. My ear began to ache my body felt tired. My head throbbed and my eyes were watery.

I practically cried.

I can see the stupidity in it all know; it was such nonsense. However, if something that small can affect me so much what happens when something really tragic happens? Will I be able to survive?

Feeling infinitely better. My confidence in myself has been renewed.

However, that was just a little bit too scary and know I do not know what to do.

Sometimes...

Sometimes you just have to admit that everything is not alright.

Sometimes that is the best thing that you can do for yourself.

Sometimes, it makes it better to just cave in and get some help.

Sometimes, doing alone is not the way to go

Sometimes...

Periodic Dominance

I have conquered the first 20 elements of the Periodic Table.

I thought I would celebrate here.

First: Hydro One = first element is Hydrogen(H)

The next three rhyme (in my mind): Helium (He), Lithium (Li), Beryllium (Be)

Then, the acronym is "Bad Children Never Offer Food, Not Ever": Boron (B), Carbon (C), Nitrogen (N), Oxygen (O), Fluorine (Fl), Neon (Ne)

Next, the acronym is "Nam...My God!": Sodium (Na), Magnesium (Mg)

After that, the acronym is "Al 'Sips' Clark": Aluminum (Al), Silicon (Si), Phosphorus (P), Chlorine (Cl), Potassium (K)

Since I live in Canada, websites here end in ".ca" and so does the first 20 elements of the Periodic Table: Calcium (Ca)

Let's Recap: Hydro One, Helium-Lithium-Beryllium, Bad Children Never Offer Food; Not Ever, Nam My God, Al 'Sips' Clark, dot Ca

Therefore:

Hydrogen (1), Helium (2), Lithium (3), Beryllium (4), Boron (5), Carbon (6), Nitrogen (7), Oxygen (8), Fluorine (9), Neon (10), Sodium (11), Magnesium (12), Aluminum (13), Silicon (14), Phosphorus (15), Sulfur (16), Chlorine (17), Argon (18), Potassium (19), Calcium (20)

That is how I am going to remember it.

Who knows what I am going to do when I get the next batch to memorize.

(Click the Above Box for Confirmation)

The Third Attempt

I thought it would be a good idea to let you know that I am okay.

I know you said you could make no promises but I still thing you heart has something left to give.

Broken and hardly outspoken, I think you have what it takes to let me in.

I know that I do.

Seeing you like this tears me apart. I want it all to stop but I know you have a process to go through.

I wish only that I could help.

…

Another week and I can barely comprehend that it is the third. Time is going by so quickly. I think I am beginning to really enjoy it. If it was not for this stupid vegetation collection then I think I could really be swimming in joy. I know that is not the only thing holding me back but I feel like it is the main one.

The day is so beautiful I can hardly remain in my seat. I am having this flow of happiness. There is so much to do, and I am doing it, but I still feel grand.

Could this be euphoria? Am I manic?

Hopefully this is the beginning of something beautiful. I hate the feel of anxious legs and frantic thoughts. I think I am in the mood for being content.


- Jeffrey

Time: Insist On It

Today was a heck of a day

Amazingly, it was filled with so much happiness that I hardly knew how to express myself.

It went beyond all the hard work (I seemed to just enjoy it). It surpassed my heartbreak when I found out that was crush is "in a relationship" (I happier off as friends). It drilled into somewhere special in my heart (I was singing and dancing; home alone).

I am so thrilled.

Today was divided equally between talking to friends, doing school work, figuring out a pipette, eating so de-lish food and dancing.

I got to be chemistry partners with Sue and Kay. I am sandwiched my loveliness.

The weather is amazing. I have rarely been so invigorated. I think I am going to love my summer here.

I think I have a place to stay in August through Graduation. No more apartment worries (fingers-crossed).

I am going home to see my freaking PUPPIES!!!

There is so much more but I have no idea how to express it. I just so pleased to be in this mood.


- Jeffrey

Insanity

Hello...

I have a question for all of you.

How the hell did Megan Fox become so popular? I mean - yes, she is sexy - but she is a total whore.

The only things that Meg Fox has going for her are boobs, slimness and being overtly sexual. To be honest, she looks like a groundhog in several of her photos. She spends most of her time being a blatant flirt and tease that is disgusts me. I would never dream of revealing so much of myself for, in my opinion, so little. Is popularity and wealth really that desirable?

I am not saying I have extremely high expectations for my women but I merely saying that people should have some standards. If someone is whoring herself out, that says a lot about her personality.

Even I will admit she looks really good bent over a classic auto but for only one reason; she looks ready to receive. I guess a lot guys like that. They now have a ready image of what it would look like if they were slamming her from the behind.

I like my women a little more classy and, well...mysterious. I want to have some guess work to still have to do. It's no fun trying to imagine them naked if you can get several hundred images of just that with only a couple clicks on Google.

Where have we gone? I thought humanity has established some integrity. I guess these are the new times and sex definitely sells.

Time to adapt, dear Jeffers. Meg Fox is going to continue arching her back whether you like it or not.

Discovery

My dark mood leaked back into my early this morning.

I really do have a ton of work to do this semester. Along with my usual studies, I am expected to collect 80 vegetation species. I do not know where to start. Luckily, I have a little missus that is going to help me out (and I shall help her in turn).

I also took on managing a free market at the school. How that works is that we accept donations, arrange them in this room we took over, and just record what comes in and out of the market. Everything is free. It is quite the good idea.

Unfortunately, people have been dumping a lot of junky clothes on us. It is a lot of folding and sorting. I thought with the hours I was manning the shop I could get some homework done. I was there for two and a half hours and managed to read 10 pages of the text and merely write the date at the top of my chemistry questions.

Oh well...

However, at 1:30PM, the Fish + Wildlife people went out to a local creek and began collecting invertebrates. We had so much fun. I got a crayfish, damselfly larvae, mayfly larvae, and countless other little beauties. If that is what my job is going to be like, I think I might have a blast. I cannot wait for the dissection.

In preparation, I started dissecting other things. I found of box of sealed tampons and began investigating. Being a guy, I never knew how crude the things could be. It's just a cardboard tube inside of another one that pushes an absorbent rag into the unmentionables. A long string hangs from the rag; presumably for when it comes time for removal.

I do not envy you ladies. We guys have it lucky. I have an even more reinforced respect for you all.


- Jeffrey

The Light in Hell

I am back into my studies.

Here I am; Lost in my responsibilities. I am swamped in my work. I am lonely and I am ad. I strain to go on because I feel so helpless.

This is what my thoughts tell me. I am glad this is not

I do have some support here. I am not alone with my thoughts. I want to go home; badly. However, I do love it here and I am having a lot of fun. I love that the air is breathable and I adore that I can feel my heart expanding.

What I hate is that I am alone in my house. I hate that thee is so much work also little that I do know. I fell in love with the town but I hate how rural and hopelessly alone I feel at night.

That was until I met Kay.

Let’s just say my worries melted away the second I saw her and leave it like that. The impossibilities of my workload, how lethal the topics may be, all the horrid tests and essays will simply fade when she but smiles and utters the smallest of laughs.

My heart skipped a beat.

There just isn’t anything more to it. This – is – awesome!